Monday, December 27, 2010
Well I found out a guy I've played disc golf with quite a few times died last week. I'll withhold the full name. I found out the day before Christmas. Then found out an old acquaintance from high schools husband died also.
So today is the funeral for the guy I knew, and I just found out he killed himself.
If anyone is actually reading this then I'll tell you I have had mental issues my whole life and have been suicidal quite a bit of my adult life.
I recently finally got correctly diagnosed bipolar and a few other things and have been taking lithium for about 6 months now and it is the first drug that actually seems to be stabilizing my mood swings.
I still have some other issues I'm trying to deal with, and I still get happy and sad. But the lithium really seems to make me more "even keel" for lack of a better word.
anyway... so this really bummed me out to find out Rod was apparently depressed enough to take his own life.
It used to freak me out when I would find out about someone killing themselves that I knew because I have tried to kill myself so many times in the past.
It didn't freak me out so much as just made me wonder how much I pay attention to people I know. I mean. I was on the same card as this person at a tournament last year and he seemed fine. he played at our clubs mini's all the time and always looked to be in good spirits. he would hang out often after a round and drink a few beers. he even won an ace pot over the summer.
well... the funeral is in an hour or so.
be well people. pay attention to others around you.