Thursday, December 30, 2010

thursday sucks

sometimes I hate the assholes I work with. they are like little fucking kids.
I'm amazed constantly that this place still runs sometimes.

Monday, December 27, 2010

wow.


Well I found out a guy I've played disc golf with quite a few times died last week. I'll withhold the full name. I found out the day before Christmas. Then found out an old acquaintance from high schools husband died also.
So today is the funeral for the guy I knew, and I just found out he killed himself.

If anyone is actually reading this then I'll tell you I have had mental issues my whole life and have been suicidal quite a bit of my adult life.
I recently finally got correctly diagnosed bipolar and a few other things and have been taking lithium for about 6 months now and it is the first drug that actually seems to be stabilizing my mood swings.
I still have some other issues I'm trying to deal with, and I still get happy and sad. But the lithium really seems to make me more "even keel" for lack of a better word.
anyway... so this really bummed me out to find out Rod was apparently depressed enough to take his own life.

It used to freak me out when I would find out about someone killing themselves that I knew because I have tried to kill myself so many times in the past.

It didn't freak me out so much as just made me wonder how much I pay attention to people I know. I mean. I was on the same card as this person at a tournament last year and he seemed fine. he played at our clubs mini's all the time and always looked to be in good spirits. he would hang out often after a round and drink a few beers. he even won an ace pot over the summer.

well... the funeral is in an hour or so.
be well people. pay attention to others around you.

R.I.P. Rod

Thursday, December 23, 2010

hAPPY hOLIDAYS( fun W/caps lock)


wELL IT'S DEAD AT WORK AND i HAVE A DOCTORS APPT AT 1:30 AND THEN WE ARE CLOSED TOMORROW.
sHOULD BE INTERESTING. i'M GUESSING i'LL WAIT FOR 45 MINUTES AND THEN SEE THE DOCTOR FOR 15 MINUTES AND THEY WILL SEND ME TO PARKLAND FOR SOME TESTS.
sO FAR THE DOCTORS iVE TALKED TO THINK IT'S MY GALL BLADDER, BUT WE'LL SEE.

mERRY cHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Monday, December 20, 2010

kookie monday

so I'm looking at some tutorials on text effects using photoshop CS and Illustrator and it's painfully obvious I need to at least take a class in some basic photoshop stuff.
I can kinda follow the tutorials, but they skip steps or assume you know to much sometimes .
but it's all good. I'm learning more and more.
got a call about a computer gig today but then they called back right as I was about to ask my boss if I could get off early. oh well.
another lady called and left a message about needing some help, but I called her and left a few messages so far.
got all the pop3 mail info I needed to be able to check the mail from our new website, so that is good.
and got my raise processed today.
so all in all it was a pretty good day.
now I go home.
Peace!!

Friday, December 10, 2010

Friday

been working on learning about backlinks, link anylitics, link spamming VS link building, etc. and also working on helping a friend figure out how to tehter his camera to his laptop and then show the image on a screen with a projector.
adobe light room here I come!!
I need a graphics tablet.
bleh.
gonna go be his assistant at a photo lighting class tonight.
wweeee!!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

gall bladder

so I may need my gall bladder removed. have to wait till the 23'rd to see a doctor.
I was able to watch some of the top pro disc golfers at the VPO in October, but couldn't play.
work is good. city voice got our new website up and running, www.maxmechanical.com

so that's cool.